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Love Really Sucks
I am not ashamed to admit I have never been in a serious relationship before.
Yes I have had many flings, numerous crushes, and I was close to having a relationship at one point in my life.
What really scares me is the notion love sucks up all your time, energy, and being. Coming from a child of a teenage pregnancy you should know what I mean.
I guess I never wanted to be like my parents… I never wanted to give up on my dreams, settle, or become distracted. This ambition helped me graduate college, but it puts a deep divide for something more meaningful.
But is that just my assumption? That love is somehow meaningful. You ask 10 different people what love is and they will give you 10 different answers.
Love seems to be arbitrary and I’ve noticed numerous problems show up during a relationship. I know people who changed for the worst after falling in love and I know people who made somewhat better strives.
Nevertheless, I want to know the purpose of love and if it is worth pursuing. Many will say YES, but an existential nihilist like me doesn’t really see the value in a human construct such as love. I mean animals mate for pleasure and offspring, but they probably do not consider it “love”.
